Boldness Has Genius and Power and Magic In It

One of my favourite quotes is by Goethe-"Whatever you do or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius and power and magic in it". And one of my favourite books is Vagabonding by Ralf Potts. This book describes vagabonding as a way of extended travel which embraces creativity and the growth of spirit.

I have just realised that since I was 18, I have planned to travel the world-a trip where I fly in one global direction and circumnavigate the planet. Since I was 18, I have researched round the world trips, visited Trailfinders to talk about my plan countless times, read dozens of travel blogs, travel books and endlessly worked out my travel budget.

During a particular law of attraction phase a few years ago, I actually booked my accommodation in South East Asia for one year in advance as I figured I was sending the universe a super clear message about my travel plans. I ended up cancelling the bookings for some crap reason. I enjoyed the planning though.

Husbands were pulled into my travel plans and mostly seemed to share my enthusiasm. Though am now realising that our own dreams are our own dreams. Over the years, whenever I felt overwhelmed by life, I would think of my travel dream and slip back into flow a little. I am realising that I have never totally committed to things because I always thought it will compromise my 'big trip'. Pets, children, houses, couches, new bathrooms.

With my last husband, when I found out I was infertile, we planned 'project serious', a 9 month travel adventure where I would give birth to my dream of travelling round the world (I have always been prone to dramatic flair). I actually thought my travel dream had ended with that marriage. I began talking myself into it being a childish dream and would n't life be easier if I just forgot about it, I had n't got my shit together so far with it etc etc.

However, this baby does not want to be forgotten. No fucking way. Over the few months, my dream re-emerged with the realisation that I can do this trip alone. And the realisation of how meaningful this will be. To do this as my true self. My commitment to explore and heal the old social work PTSD remains unchanged, however that feels like quite a heavy energy which can be counter-acted by the flow, growth mindset which my travel plans always bring me. Hurrah.

The biggest challenge (as always) is my tendency to self sabotage so I shall come up with a cunning plan to love the fuck out of this worried self. To say thanks for worrying about and for me however, I have so got this. Sacrifices will need to be made however starting a 3 year course of online study will help with focus and saving. I will grow to love spreadsheet financial planning.

So today's brave as fuck badassery is to relaunch my round the world travel dream. In order to bring on the boldness, genius and magic, I have just renewed my Lonely Planet subscription, opened a travel budget spreadsheet, emailed my rough itinerary to Airtrekers for a quote, re-followed Ralf Potts on instagram and ordered Matt Kepner's new book-Ten Years A Nomad: A Traveller's Journey Home. I am back on the travel planning highway woohoo. I will leave in 2023 when I finish the MSC Mindfulness which I start in September this year (can't wait to start this). Oh wait, I feel a vision board coming on! #justgo #lifeisadaringadventureornothing #braveasfuck.