So for the past couple of days I have been sick. In bed sick. Being sick is never fun. Initially, being sick on my own was not that fun either. It made me value having some one there to make a cup of tea or fill my hot water bottle. Just to take the effort and decision out of things for a bit.
And yet, it has also also been totally ok and shows me how far I have come. From being so scared of being alone that I have remained in relationships way after it was time to leave then typically jumping straight into new ones.
Infact, apart from feeling lousy, it has been really great. I was able to make a clear decision on not being able to work and cancel plans with only very mild doubt/assurance seeking from my boss that I needed to be off. This was extremely low level doubt/assurance seeking compared to previous times when I have gone into work unwell because my 'shoulds' and need to please others were greater than my need to listen to my body and rest.
This time, I have listened to my body and rested. And I rocked the hell out of being sick. I stayed in bed. I ate Heinz tomato soup. I watched three seasons of Shameless (UK) and reminisced on how many outfits I used to have like Fiona (that blue Adidas top, loved it). And after two days, I emerged feeling better, feeling rested and feeling stronger for having chosen myself #braveasfuck.
Thanks you guys! 🥰🥰 Oooh have just read fab article on The Lost Art Of Convalescence! And giving our bodies permission to rest and repair! Felt myself wanting to dive in again today at usual pace- this article reminded me to slow down and reduce all activities for the next week! Yay! 😃
Google ‘lost convalescing’ there are lots of interesting articles about how this ‘stage of illness’ is no longer recognised as we are expected to rush back to work. We rarely even use the word convalescing these days. But giving yourself that extra time to recover to feeling 100% better will most likely mean you’re not calling in sick again a few weeks down the line. Take your time and well done you for Shameless Heinz Tomato Soup!! 😘
Aw bless didn't know you'd been sick but good you looked after yourself and listened to your body...as there can often be the tendency to ignore which so doesn't help 😀😀